An Accomplished Day
>> Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Hold onto your horses because this update is going to be a doozy.
Got my oil changed, and and while doing so, I treated Z and myself to a shopping trip at Salvation Army's 50% off clothing and accessories Wednesday. Spent $50 and walked out with two big bags of clothes, yet again. LOVE that store. And I love my weight loss that allows me to shop in smaller sizes.
Talked to EDI today.
Having a name of someone that you're trying to get a hold of is so convenient because it totally bypasses the automated system when you talk to the operator and tell them that so-and-so wants to know x info. Turns out that EDI has been trying to contact us since we submitted our application! My email was identifying their emails as spam and that's why they weren't showing up in my inbox. I never even thought to check junk mail, but I will in the future!
Anyway, the difficult to hear news upfront:
- EDI's waiting list is 6 months to a year long. Booooo.
- I am probably going to have to get surgery to remove my left tube. Boooo.
Ok, it's not that bad. A 6th month wait isperfect ok and what we'd have to do regardless if I end up having surgery. Plus, I want to lose another 15 pounds and 6 months makes that possible.
I was prepared to be told to have surgery and while it's not mandated at this point - pending medical records, I am going to ask to have it. The concern is that a tube that is blocked at the end farthest from the uterus could be filled with poisonous-to-embaby fluids that can't drain because the tube is blocked. Those fluids can flow back into the uterus and kill the embryos before they even have a chance to do their thing. Remove the tube and the poison is gone. Now that I know that's the problem, and I know that the tube IS blocked at the end closest to the ovary per my last HSG (half an hour of excruciating pain laying on a metal slab tilted to the left seeing my tube the size of a piece of spaghetti blow up to the size of a football makes me remember 2 years ago this month), that tube has got to go. Period. Because if it doesn't go, and I don't get pregnant, I'm always going to think that it was my fault and I didn't go the distance for these babies. I can't live with that.
Ok so I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a teensy bit disappointed in having to wait. AGAIN. But that's the name of the game in infertility. Hurry up and make a decision so you can wait. Thankfully we decided to move forward now and not later this summer or fall. Plus I'm living a lifetime in that waiting and not just sitting on my bum feeling sorry for myself this go-round. This waiting has purpose for me. More so than even waiting for an adoption match. It's motivating me to keep losing weight, to get even more healthy, to start working out so that I'm in the best physical shape for a pregnancy.
While waiting is hard and I wish we were getting matched with embryos tomorrow and having a FDET (Frozen Donated Embryo Transfer) next month, it's gonna be ok because at least we're still in the game and haven't been kicked off Team TTC (trying to conceive for the fertiles in the house) even if we're playing with someone else's embabies now. And realistically, even if we were matched with embryos tomorrow, I have blood and ute testing I need to go through, monitoring for a month to see how my ute builds lining, and a myriad of various equipment inspections, etc. It's been almost two years since our last IVF and that means starting from scratch in a lot of ways. Who knows what my ute looks like from the inside. The last time there was a camera in there was before pregnancy with triplets, before getting cut open, etc. Based on my past infertility experience, I'd say it would take a good three months alone just to get ready for a FDET even without anybody in line in front of us.
The good news:
- The fact that we have a kid puts us towards the bottom of the list. But the fact that she's adopted, bumps us further up the list, closer to the top.
- If I become a patient of EDI's now, they can make things move faster for me. Which means I need to get them my medical records and schedule an initial consult, once they get & review said records. The gal actually said she thinks "things could move really fast" for us. I'm not sure how to interpret that. I'm still holding to 6 months, because of probable surgery and recovery, and just so I don't get too excited and/or disappointed.
- I can get all the testing and surgery done while we wait. We don't have to be at the top of the list to move forward, and we can use this wait time wisely, so that once we are at the top, we can do the transfer without further delay. Phew!
- My clinic locally can do everything except the initial consult, mock transfer, and actual embryo transfer. All the monitoring, testing, surgery, etc, can be performed at a place that I already have a referral to, has already volunteered to do the above, and can be covered by insurance!!! PRAISE GOD!! That will save us a literal boatload of money.
- The fact that we lost triplets does nothing to handicap our chances. It wasn't even mentioned except for a deeply heartfelt condolence.
Tomorrow I will be contacting my different IVF clinics and hospitals where I had surgery to get them to send my medical records to EDI, so we can start this whole shebang.
Please pray that things move smoothly and that the right embabies will be available for adoption. I am a bit freaked that someone higher on the list will pick the embryos I have my heart set on. I know I need to just trust God and keep moving forward. But I'm still concerned.
I was supposed to have my first art class today, but the mass email sent by the A&FRC detailing the date and place got the dates mixed up. The class is on Tuesdays and started yesterday, not today. Bummer. The silver lining was that I got to go to the BX, which was having an awesome sale on toddler dresses, so I splurged on Z. And because Hubby had already taken off the afternoon and had taken us to lunch, he came back home with us and we all went to Joann's where we spent an ungodly amount of moolah on fabric and patterns and notions. The store is like pintrest on crack. But I am well supplied to start my purse-making. Except zippers. I need zippers.
All's well that ends well. And the day was awesome.
*****
Got my oil changed, and and while doing so, I treated Z and myself to a shopping trip at Salvation Army's 50% off clothing and accessories Wednesday. Spent $50 and walked out with two big bags of clothes, yet again. LOVE that store. And I love my weight loss that allows me to shop in smaller sizes.
*****
Talked to EDI today.
Having a name of someone that you're trying to get a hold of is so convenient because it totally bypasses the automated system when you talk to the operator and tell them that so-and-so wants to know x info. Turns out that EDI has been trying to contact us since we submitted our application! My email was identifying their emails as spam and that's why they weren't showing up in my inbox. I never even thought to check junk mail, but I will in the future!
Anyway, the difficult to hear news upfront:
- EDI's waiting list is 6 months to a year long. Booooo.
- I am probably going to have to get surgery to remove my left tube. Boooo.
Ok, it's not that bad. A 6th month wait is
I was prepared to be told to have surgery and while it's not mandated at this point - pending medical records, I am going to ask to have it. The concern is that a tube that is blocked at the end farthest from the uterus could be filled with poisonous-to-embaby fluids that can't drain because the tube is blocked. Those fluids can flow back into the uterus and kill the embryos before they even have a chance to do their thing. Remove the tube and the poison is gone. Now that I know that's the problem, and I know that the tube IS blocked at the end closest to the ovary per my last HSG (half an hour of excruciating pain laying on a metal slab tilted to the left seeing my tube the size of a piece of spaghetti blow up to the size of a football makes me remember 2 years ago this month), that tube has got to go. Period. Because if it doesn't go, and I don't get pregnant, I'm always going to think that it was my fault and I didn't go the distance for these babies. I can't live with that.
Ok so I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a teensy bit disappointed in having to wait. AGAIN. But that's the name of the game in infertility. Hurry up and make a decision so you can wait. Thankfully we decided to move forward now and not later this summer or fall. Plus I'm living a lifetime in that waiting and not just sitting on my bum feeling sorry for myself this go-round. This waiting has purpose for me. More so than even waiting for an adoption match. It's motivating me to keep losing weight, to get even more healthy, to start working out so that I'm in the best physical shape for a pregnancy.
While waiting is hard and I wish we were getting matched with embryos tomorrow and having a FDET (Frozen Donated Embryo Transfer) next month, it's gonna be ok because at least we're still in the game and haven't been kicked off Team TTC (trying to conceive for the fertiles in the house) even if we're playing with someone else's embabies now. And realistically, even if we were matched with embryos tomorrow, I have blood and ute testing I need to go through, monitoring for a month to see how my ute builds lining, and a myriad of various equipment inspections, etc. It's been almost two years since our last IVF and that means starting from scratch in a lot of ways. Who knows what my ute looks like from the inside. The last time there was a camera in there was before pregnancy with triplets, before getting cut open, etc. Based on my past infertility experience, I'd say it would take a good three months alone just to get ready for a FDET even without anybody in line in front of us.
The good news:
- The fact that we have a kid puts us towards the bottom of the list. But the fact that she's adopted, bumps us further up the list, closer to the top.
- If I become a patient of EDI's now, they can make things move faster for me. Which means I need to get them my medical records and schedule an initial consult, once they get & review said records. The gal actually said she thinks "things could move really fast" for us. I'm not sure how to interpret that. I'm still holding to 6 months, because of probable surgery and recovery, and just so I don't get too excited and/or disappointed.
- I can get all the testing and surgery done while we wait. We don't have to be at the top of the list to move forward, and we can use this wait time wisely, so that once we are at the top, we can do the transfer without further delay. Phew!
- My clinic locally can do everything except the initial consult, mock transfer, and actual embryo transfer. All the monitoring, testing, surgery, etc, can be performed at a place that I already have a referral to, has already volunteered to do the above, and can be covered by insurance!!! PRAISE GOD!! That will save us a literal boatload of money.
- The fact that we lost triplets does nothing to handicap our chances. It wasn't even mentioned except for a deeply heartfelt condolence.
Tomorrow I will be contacting my different IVF clinics and hospitals where I had surgery to get them to send my medical records to EDI, so we can start this whole shebang.
Please pray that things move smoothly and that the right embabies will be available for adoption. I am a bit freaked that someone higher on the list will pick the embryos I have my heart set on. I know I need to just trust God and keep moving forward. But I'm still concerned.
*****
I was supposed to have my first art class today, but the mass email sent by the A&FRC detailing the date and place got the dates mixed up. The class is on Tuesdays and started yesterday, not today. Bummer. The silver lining was that I got to go to the BX, which was having an awesome sale on toddler dresses, so I splurged on Z. And because Hubby had already taken off the afternoon and had taken us to lunch, he came back home with us and we all went to Joann's where we spent an ungodly amount of moolah on fabric and patterns and notions. The store is like pintrest on crack. But I am well supplied to start my purse-making. Except zippers. I need zippers.
*****
All's well that ends well. And the day was awesome.
1 comments:
Wow! So glad your day was awesome, even with the 6 month wait news! Praying!
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